I'm on the verge of sanity. I am being very strong. Not eating meat. Not eating cheese. Not eating crap. Not eating after 8pm. I'm exercising every night.
So.. why can't I get a little support!!?? I have Grannie offering crap for me to eat. The Demon dishes up ice cream and covers it with hard chocolate shell and sits right next to me. Every bite I hear. Every scrape of the spoon is like nails on a chalk board. I am sure I could actually hear him swallowing.
I'm. On. The. Edge.
I slipped up, and had some ice cream. I'm sick about it. I felt such guilt. Ugggh.
I slipped up, and had some ice cream. I'm sick about it. I felt such guilt. Ugggh.
It's affecting my daily interactions. I broke down crying today. WTF? WHY? Maybe it's because of my normal daily stresses plus hunger? I have even less patience with people than is normal for me - I didn't even know that was possible.
What day is it.. Wednesday? LOL It's only been 3 days. Lord help me get through this week. And, Lord help anyone that gets in my way!!
What day is it.. Wednesday? LOL It's only been 3 days. Lord help me get through this week. And, Lord help anyone that gets in my way!!
You can get thru this.. I know it! Much <3
ReplyDeleteWhew....I hear you! I'm trying to get my healthy on again and it's HARD!!! I have realized that if I don't give myself a little something that I'll never make it. I was having a really hard time with ice cream craving and NEEDING something sweet until a friend suggested.....FUDGE POPS! I get the ones that say "No sugar added" and they are only 40 calories and delicious! They also have "sugar-free" that are even lower in calories, but I don't like "diety" tasting stuff and I can handle 40 calories for the real taste. lol
ReplyDeleteGood Luck Casey <3