trying to find some bright spots...

today marks the 12th year since my grandpa passed away.  

may is just not a fun time for us, and after this year, it will only get worse.

yesterday, beastie boy - Adam Yauch - passed away.  as i was driving to pick the demon up from school, paul revere played on the radio.  after the last few weeks, if you were to say that i am "on the edge of sanity", that would be an understatement.  i instantly started crying.  silly really.  

i pulled into the school parking lot and parked right next to this little guy..

it's not possible to look at that face and not smile.  even i, with this cold...hurt heart right now, couldn't resist his face.

a short while after we got home i was heading down grannie's driveway to get the lawn mower and walked by this...

how does this even happen?  this decided to bloom in a crack between the house and concrete of the driveway.  it's very pretty.  it provides a bright splash of orange in an otherwise drab area of the backyard.

finally, it's hard to be sad all of the time when this greets you every time you walk in or out of grannie's house.

i hope this is a boy.  i don't want to go over one day and be surprised by kittens.  i can't keep "him" still long enough to get a closer look, but "he's" so friendly and loveable.  i've named him.. orangie.  creative, right?  i wish we could bring him inside and keep him...but 2 maniac cats are enough for this household.

if i'm going to be forced out of the house (instead of being able to stay under my covers in my bed) it's nice to have a few random surprises.