I haven't talked to my brother in over 5 weeks. He has to be getting support from people who are validating that what he is doing, and has done all these years (maintaining that friendship), is right. The only other time that we've gone this long without talking is when my (now) SIL got pregnant and I was the last to find out.
I'm sure things like "Your sister has no right to tell you who you can and can't be friends with" has been said over and over to him. My grandma supports what he's done all these years, even doing some of the same things herself (maintaining a friendship with "her").
I don't see this ending unless I cave. Why should I have to!!??? I've given him 11 years. 11 years I've been hurt. For 11 years, it has eaten away at me. For 11 years everyone else is happy.. no one CARES that I am not. My feelings have never changed during these 11 years.
Should I be the one that caves to keep my family together?
Should I have to be miserable?
Is that what has to happen?
My mom has completely supported me during these 5 weeks. She really doesn't see him changing, but she doesn't think I should have to give in...
What is going to happen with holidays? Birthdays are coming up? Before we know it, Thanksgiving and Christmas will be here. At this point in time, my grandma is anticipating separate holidays. They boys assume that we're not hanging out together, as a group, because of his crazy work schedule.
He'd rather keep that friendship...than keep our family together!? Or am I being too stubborn? Am I too concerned with ending that friendship that I'm the one tearing the family apart??
I just don't know what to do and it's eating at me.
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